diff --git a/content/philosophy.tree b/content/philosophy.tree index 44d983c..e743f03 100644 --- a/content/philosophy.tree +++ b/content/philosophy.tree @@ -169,3 +169,7 @@ % id = "01JBAK3T1Z6QSCGVE9PF9CWFGC" - an entry on this website provoked me to write this. I don't want to call out the specific one because it would be missing the point. + +% content.link = "philosophy/nicknames" + id = "01JBWJ0475CPPP1FTWY1BRDWA6" ++ :page: on nicknames diff --git a/content/philosophy/nicknames.tree b/content/philosophy/nicknames.tree new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6c4b001 --- /dev/null +++ b/content/philosophy/nicknames.tree @@ -0,0 +1,170 @@ +%% title = "on nicknames" + +% id = "01JBWHXTMKTDGDBATFM9H27KZK" +- my given name is Gabriel. +I'm okay with saying this here, because it's not exactly hard to find that out. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKZRY3G0P0GQK8Z1TY" + - I don't really try to conceal my real world identity; you can even find my up to date photos online, and I'm okay with them being there. + +% id = "01JBWHXTMKNPNHRZ9R2BSBFNHH" +- you may've noticed however that I don't ever use my real name on the treehouse (outside of this branch.) +nor do I use my real name on any social platforms or chat apps. + +% id = "01JBWHXTMKZ9SV2TV3RKEYK98B" +- so you may be left wondering, "what's the deal with you calling yourself _liquidex_?" + +% id = "01JBWHXTMK65CZ5Y7660AZS1JW" +- I'm a zoomer; the Internet existed since before I was born. +my first exposure to the world of computers (and the Internet) was when I was just 6 years old, and I remember my uncle telling me something along the lines of: + +> Do not type in your real world details _anywhere_ online. +> +> Not your name, your home address, your phone number. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKFWRPNJXW5HA50ZAS" + - this was in 2010. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKGRHKNSK0GG13FNEJ" + - so I took that advice _very_ seriously. + _never_ input your real world data anywhere. + +% id = "01JBWHXTMKDJ9JBZR93DFXPGBE" ++ later on my cousin would introduce me to the world of email and [online chat](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gadu-Gadu). +she came up with a nickname for me, `gabens`. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKGGRPMJCFKHR6BQ60" + - it's pronounced like "gah-bens." + this was before [Gaben](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gabe_Newell) was popular in Poland. + +% id = "01JBWHXTMKDJDFTGHY57AHVW6E" +- I didn't really like that nickname though, since it still had my real name in it... +so I used it for email only, and went on to search for a different one. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMK6PQNR8M45JSXQYT9" + + I went through many iterations. + in 2014, I finally arrived at the word `liquid`, which had a really cool sound to it. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMK0E4EPJMS40X9ZW00" + - I came up with this word while playing around with Mom's smartphone at the time. + I was in the car with my sister, waiting for Mom to leave work and drive us home, and I was playing around with HTC's image editor. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKZ7JND40G9F9RKSJS" + + we had just adopted a cat at the time; I was using a picture of her as my test subject. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKA5BBH22ATKZGK0V9" + - (she's still alive and well! though she broke her tail a couple years ago :cry:) + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKG21RQH51Y7FT9ZQW" + - one of the filters was called "Prism" and it had a few kaleidoscope-like patterns, chopping up the image into bits, shifting it around a bunch, and masking off parts. + the pattern I liked the most had a distinct italic `L`-like shape, and as I was looking at the picture, the word `liquid` popped into my head. + "yup, that's gonna be my new online nickname!" + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKAJ6T5PGJAQ24TJGM" + - at first I transformed it into `liquidek`, which is a diminutive of `liquid` if you interpret it as a Polish word. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKE1ZXRKF2Z4CH9HXP" + - later I made it more serious and turned it into `iLiquid600`. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMK4NRVXXEXJPGPB0NX" + - later I dropped the `600` and it became just `iLiquid`. + it stayed like this for a really long time. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKCCHA6YVP5F2V2CVW" + - my friends got used just to calling me `liquid` at this point, dropping the `i` in the front. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKS5D5JGSXZQSZXK71" + - then in 2019 we were dicking around in FL Studio with a friend, and I jokingly chose an alias for my shitpost music---`DJ Liquidex`. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKRND5W0AQAX6R4QZS" + + I really liked the ring of it though, and in 2020 my online identity went through a rebranding---change all nicknames from `iLiquid` to `liquidex`, and adopt a new logo for myself. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMK2VS2ZB7CEMCPG8F3" + - scroll to the top of the page, and it's still that same logo! + the original had a rainbow in it, but I don't have it on the website because I thought it was a little too distracting. + + ![the original version of the logo, with a rainbow beneath the L][pic:01JBSYYTVXW7EG2YH13P5W983V] + + fun fact: this logo was drawn in [Aseprite](https://aseprite.org/), using [ENDESGA's 32 color palette](https://lospec.com/palette-list/endesga-32). + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKQX9MVXJTZ5Q0N18D" + - I think the logo still holds up really well after all these years. + it's unlikely I'll change it any time soon; it's basically my digital signature at this point. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKF17KRBCZK1GH90PR" + - I might bring back the rainbow though. + maybe on hover :thinking: + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKFCBWBPP20G397ES5" + + when I was looking for a fake surname for liquidex, I chose Woźniak. + it's a very common name with Polish roots that starts with the same letter as my real name. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKH39JK3G72F8M4BFC" + - _and_ Steve Wozniak. + I don't know much about him personally, but he seems like a worthy person to look up to. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKCS16X93VVJWYBH6W" + - and that's the whole story; that's how liquidex came to be. + I've been using this nickname for a few years now and I really like it. + it has a friendly but slightly edgy and quirky vibe to it, which fits my personality well. + +% id = "01JBWHXTMKKJB8JH4TCH8XSAZS" +- I'm really happy with having a nickname. +it represents a part of me I don't actually hate. +it represents something I built up to over many years; my personal brand, my online identity. + +% id = "01JBWHXTMKCKVCZ2DYDK2RPCNG" +- but an interesting thought arises: would I be more normal online if my family hadn't educated me to hide my own identity? + +% id = "01JBWHXTMKT1TCWT89JX88QVX1" +- and another interesting thought: nicknames seem like a thing of _our_ generation---gen Z. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKM2G2AF70VX3X2KST" + - as we were just getting Internet into our homes, our parents wanted us to be safe out there. + so to try and minimise the risk of getting manipulated by a pedophile, they told us to _never, never ever_ input our real data online. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMK87DR99KKP6WSF5J4" + - there's an interesting divide that happened because of this. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKGTNCMMZ2TJ8XPFWV" + - there were the folks that grew up with facebook, which forced you to use your real world identity. + + these people generally seem to use their real names everywhere still. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKBRWRCT0TKMYE9W5G" + - there's also us nerds who grew up doing other things; socialising more online than irl, taking care not to run into any sus people along the` `{=html}way. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMK1981C88E4HF3WPFS" + - I've been thinking about this and it doesn't seem like it's entirely _generational_; initially it seemed like a gen Z thing, but I know people far older than gen Z who do prefer using a nickname. + however, I do think a large portion of gen Z _nerds_ chooses to use nicknames because of how they were raised. + +% id = "01JBWHXTMKA0C6ZW75T269C9AR" +- I'm grateful for my parents' care when it came to my online presence. +sharing your real data online when you're a kid sounds like a _baaad_ idea. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKXBK1B99VED9GV2BT" + - but this also has a flip side: being the weirdo I am, the idea of hiding your real world identity online keeps lingering within me. + and that sometimes feels wrong when you're already an adult and see your coworkers being okay with using _their_ real names, and heck, real _photos_ online. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMK9QAJGHHM9VRQ02M3" + - also, while it supposedly helped me protect me as a kid, it also caused _so much_ unnecessary self-hate. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMK4SMAMG4W61E02ZSV" + - it instilled [a fear of seeing pictures of myself](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNKrcwOG-SE){.secret}. + + I never published my own face online, so I never got much of a chance to look at my own pictures. + + and I don't ever take photos of myself, because I don't like looking at my pictures. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKPQ6RN7TNXN51BHGV" + - so it's like an endless cycle of disliking the way I look. + + but honestly... I'm okay with that. + I've learned to accept my face in the mirror. I don't need it shoved everywhere I go. + I'm not Aphex Twin. + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKKZ4H2THV6C2A6SCN" + - besides, I have a cute fursona, and I'm proud of it :smile: + + % id = "01JBWHXTMKR4WZK36WYA0E1XF0" + - and there's so much more to a person than just the way they look. diff --git a/static/pic/01JBSYYTVXW7EG2YH13P5W983V-2020-logo.png b/static/pic/01JBSYYTVXW7EG2YH13P5W983V-2020-logo.png new file mode 100644 index 0000000..26598de Binary files /dev/null and b/static/pic/01JBSYYTVXW7EG2YH13P5W983V-2020-logo.png differ