blue calx

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     - I don't want to be tied to SoundCloud with where I host my music, but don't currently have any infrastructure set up for where I could host it for people to listen to.
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+- overcoming [fear of the unknown][page:philosophy/fear-of-the-unknown], episode 1.
+
+	- overthinking my [furry][page:philosophy/furry] self again.
+	my heart is pounding.
+
+- I play Blue Calx.
+
+	- as the first notes come in, I sense warm feeling, as if being hugged by someone.
+	"it's gonna be okay..."
+
+		- "you've been through much mental stress before.
+		but this... there's no need to panic."
+
+		- they takes me outside to appreciate the city lights.
+		we fly high up into the sky to watch from above.
+
+	- the warm distortion of the tape gives me a sense of nostalgia.
+
+		- I am relieved to be in the place I am right now.
+
+	- as the notes fade away for a moment, only the metronome remains. it makes me feel empowered, but scared.
+	"will it really be okay?"
+
+		- "look at everyone around you.
+		struggling just as much as you are.
+		you are not alone in this."
+
+		- the notes come back in to hug me again.
+		the warm embrace of the other part of my self.
+
+	- the metronome starts fading away.
+	it really is going to be okay.
+
+- thank you, Richard.
+
+- my heart's still pounding, but hearing this track made me feel a little better about myself.