- overcoming [fear of the unknown][page:philosophy/fear-of-the-unknown], episode 1.

	- overthinking my [furry][page:philosophy/furry] self again.
	my heart is pounding.

- I play Blue Calx.

	- as the first notes come in, I sense warm feeling, as if being hugged by someone.
	"it's gonna be okay..."

		- "you've been through much mental stress before.
		but this... there's no need to panic."

		- they takes me outside to appreciate the city lights.
		we fly high up into the sky to watch from above.

	- the warm distortion of the tape gives me a sense of nostalgia.

		- I am relieved to be in the place I am right now.

	- as the notes fade away for a moment, only the metronome remains. it makes me feel empowered, but scared.
	"will it really be okay?"

		- "look at everyone around you.
		struggling just as much as you are.
		you are not alone in this."

		- the notes come back in to hug me again.
		the warm embrace of the other part of my self.

	- the metronome starts fading away.
	it really is going to be okay.

- thank you, Richard.

- my heart's still pounding, but hearing this track made me feel a little better about myself.