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- most of us probably can't imagine holding a company talk on a tech conference while wearing a fursuit.

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    - I had this revelation today that it would be extremely funny if I did something like that, only for the thought of harsh reality to come knocking at my door.
    
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        - if you're giving a presentation on behalf of your company, you are _representing_ the company, so any clownage you pull will have negative consequences on the company's [PR]{title="public relations"}.

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- but honestly, I can't shake the feeling that _something is broken here_.
why do we, as a society, fear sillyness?

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    + this is not even something our company can fix, no matter how much it portrays to be rebellious or how big, red and bold we make the "*[WE BREAK RULES, WE MAKE RULES]{style="--recursive-casl: 0; --recursive-wght: 800;"}*" text on our website.

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        - which I find ironic considering we make games for mainstreamers.

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- I was thinking about this all day, because it left me dismayed.
why can I not share my fun and silly with the world at will?
what's wrong with speaking in a fluffy suit on a tech conference?

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    - and one word came to my mind. "responsibility."

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        - You are responsible for the company image, [Mr.](https://projectile.bandcamp.com/album/sinking){.secret title="Projectile."} {-Anderson-} liquidex.

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- so what is responsibility?

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    - one might think it's acting "like an adult would," but that doesn't really tell you anything, does it?

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    - maybe looking at it from a different angle, you could say that if you're taking care of someone, you're responsible for any harm that happens to them.

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        - so what happens if they _do_ get harmed, and you don't do anything to rectify it?
        *consequences.*
        at best you may get reprimanded and nothing happens to them, at worst they die or get permanent bodily harm.

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    - so looking at it this way, maybe responsibility could be framed as *fear of consequence*?

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    - not acting like an adult.
    not forcing yourself to stay serious.
    just rectifying negative consequences.

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- we rectify negative consequences, because of monkey brain herd mentality: [conformity](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conformity).

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    -  there are cases where you _have_ to stay serious, where [life's on the line](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1QNoygm8bEY){.secret title="And therefur liquidex did not stay serious and did his usual secret music link shenaniganry, including a furry joke in this very sentence you're reading right now. Splendid."} and some could _fucking die or get permanently hurt_.
    
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        - but since our species's inception, we as humans have become more than just hunter-gatherers.
        we partake in _culture_.
        and I feel like overly subjecting yourself to herd mentality can do you a lot of harm in that area.

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- so why the fuck should I not wear a fursuit while speaking at a tech conference?

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    - because herd mentality.

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- why the fuck am I afraid to go outside with cat ears on?

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    - because herd mentality.

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- why the fuck can I not do anything about this?

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    - because herd mentality;
    one person is too little to make a meaningful difference.

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- _sigh_.
at least I can dream.