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liquidex 7ed19454f2 fix branches in blue calx, for good 2024-11-25 17:02:00 +01:00
liquidex dfe45abe7d philosophy: on responsibility & conformity 2024-11-25 16:59:58 +01:00
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- overcoming [fear of the unknown][page:philosophy/fear-of-the-unknown], episode 1. - overcoming [fear of the unknown][page:philosophy/fear-of-the-unknown], episode 1.
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- overthinking my [furry][page:philosophy/furry] self again. - overthinking my [furry][page:philosophy/furry] self again.
my heart is pounding. my heart is pounding.
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- I play Blue Calx. - I play Blue Calx.
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- as the first notes come in, I sense warm feeling, as if being hugged by someone. - as the first notes come in, I sense warm feeling, as if being hugged by someone.
"it's gonna be okay..." "it's gonna be okay..."
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- "you've been through much mental stress before. - "you've been through much mental stress before.
but this... there's no need to panic." but this... there's no need to panic."
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- they takes me outside to appreciate the city lights. - they takes me outside to appreciate the city lights.
we fly high up into the sky to watch from above. we fly high up into the sky to watch from above.
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- the warm distortion of the tape gives me a sense of nostalgia. - the warm distortion of the tape gives me a sense of nostalgia.
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- I am relieved to be in the place I am right now. - I am relieved to be in the place I am right now.
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- as the notes fade away for a moment, only the metronome remains. it makes me feel empowered, but scared. - as the notes fade away for a moment, only the metronome remains. it makes me feel empowered, but scared.
"will it really be okay?" "will it really be okay?"
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- "look at everyone around you. - "look at everyone around you.
struggling just as much as you are. struggling just as much as you are.
you are not alone in this." you are not alone in this."
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- the notes come back in to hug me again. - the notes come back in to hug me again.
the warm embrace of the other part of my self. the warm embrace of the other part of my self.
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- the metronome starts fading away. - the metronome starts fading away.
it really is going to be okay. it really is going to be okay.
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- thank you, Richard. - thank you, Richard.
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- my heart's still pounding, but hearing this track made me feel a little better about myself. - my heart's still pounding, but hearing this track made me feel a little better about myself.

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- hey don't make this weird, okay. - hey don't make this weird, okay.
showers are good for having thoughts. showers are good for having thoughts.
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+ :page: on responsibility & conformity
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+ :page: furry! ---w--- + :page: furry! ---w---
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content.link = "philosophy/hedonic-treadmill" content.link = "philosophy/hedonic-treadmill"
+ :page: hedonic treadmill ([wikipedia](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hedonic_treadmill)) + :page: hedonic treadmill ([wikipedia](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hedonic_treadmill))

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- most of us probably can't imagine holding a company talk on a tech conference while wearing a fursuit.
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- I had this revelation today that it would be extremely funny if I did something like that, only for the thought of harsh reality to come knocking at my door.
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- if you're giving a presentation on behalf of your company, you are _representing_ the company, so any clownage you pull will have negative consequences on the company's [PR]{title="public relations"}.
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- but honestly, I can't shake the feeling that _something is broken here_.
why do we, as a society, fear sillyness?
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+ this is not even something our company can fix, no matter how much it portrays to be rebellious or how big, red and bold we make the "*[WE BREAK RULES, WE MAKE RULES]{style="--recursive-casl: 0; --recursive-wght: 800;"}*" text on our website.
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- which I find ironic considering we make games for mainstreamers.
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- I was thinking about this all day, because it left me dismayed.
why can I not share my fun and silly with the world at will?
what's wrong with speaking in a fluffy suit on a tech conference?
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- and one word came to my mind. "responsibility."
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- You are responsible for the company image, [Mr.](https://projectile.bandcamp.com/album/sinking){.secret title="Projectile."} {-Anderson-} liquidex.
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- so what is responsibility?
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- one might think it's acting "like an adult would," but that doesn't really tell you anything, does it?
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- maybe looking at it from a different angle, you could say that if you're taking care of someone, you're responsible for any harm that happens to them.
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- so what happens if they _do_ get harmed, and you don't do anything to rectify it?
*consequences.*
at best you may get reprimanded and nothing happens to them, at worst they die or get permanent bodily harm.
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- so looking at it this way, maybe responsibility could be framed as *fear of consequence*?
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- not acting like an adult.
not forcing yourself to stay serious.
just rectifying negative consequences.
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- we rectify negative consequences, because of monkey brain herd mentality: [conformity](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conformity).
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- there are cases where you _have_ to stay serious, where [life's on the line](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1QNoygm8bEY){.secret title="And therefur liquidex did not stay serious and did his usual secret music link shenaniganry, including a furry joke in this very sentence you're reading right now. Splendid."} and some could _fucking die or get permanently hurt_.
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- but since our species's inception, we as humans have become more than just hunter-gatherers.
we partake in _culture_.
and I feel like overly subjecting yourself to herd mentality can do you a lot of harm in that area.
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- so why the fuck should I not wear a fursuit while speaking at a tech conference?
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- because herd mentality.
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- why the fuck am I afraid to go outside with cat ears on?
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- because herd mentality.
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- why the fuck can I not do anything about this?
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- because herd mentality;
one person is too little to make a meaningful difference.
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- _sigh_.
at least I can dream.