music: Kettel - Dubio

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+- as _Dubio_ opens with its title track, I am taken into the mountains.
+on an alpine tundra, following a hiking trail, surrounded by rocks larger than my mind can comprehend.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YS8N9SPT7YZF021H8"
+    - it's a mostly clear day with few clouds drifting across the sky, sometimes obscuring the sun, creating dramatic shadows on the slopes.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YY2F8BWJM2HASEGN9"
+    - a warm wind blows across your face, creating what looks like waves on an ocean of grass blades across the steep, rocky meadows.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7Y0ZWZK6F06DP8VDAD"
+    - when you walk through the mountains, there's sometimes a strange feeling of all the landscape in the distance feeling like a painted-on wall.
+    but it's not a wall, you can actually just go there.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YYPXM2KDXJ3073G7N"
+    - it's a contemplative mood, filling you with thought.
+    you ponder on the meaning of life, on goals... where all of it's going, how you're a lost soul, looking for a reason to exist.
+
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+- _Apeface_.
+the feeling of walking through the city on a Saturday evening.
+
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+    - warm sodium lanterns give the cobblestone streets a glow that makes you feel at home.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YYH7RK8741AEYZ3FW"
+    - streets, restaurants, bars full of people hanging out.
+    taking in the fun of the weekend.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YMD8XP8MA06H18E66"
+    - it's a mood I've heard before in other tracks, but _Apeface_ is strangely hopeful compared to the others.
+
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+        - yet it somewhat reminds me of more painful times, when I was struggling with loneliness...
+        but it's more like a happy resolution of those times, rather than a lament to how terrifying it is to be alone.
+
+        % id = "01JQYKNE7YFRC3DM2PH9CTGD6S"
+        - I don't feel saddened by being alone in a city.
+        I feel happy being able to spend time with my girlfriend.
+
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+- when listening to _Sipa_, I feel frozen in time, and paralysed by choice.
+
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+    - the feeling of not knowing what to do.
+    of feeling like you're in slow motion while the world around you is moving.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YCVX1SVFVYTZ7H2SY"
+    - reminding you there's not much you can do.
+    that you'll just have to control the damage from now on.
+
+        % id = "01JQYKNE7YA1Z5GDS83BX0M77N"
+        - it's learned helplessness.
+        wanting improvement, but deep inside knowing it will be rejected by external forces.
+        being consumed by fear that it will not work out.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YKCDE272V7W1TW765"
+    - yet feeling focused, looking for the right move to eventually say... "checkmate."
+
+% id = "01JQYKNE7YRDM156YSTPH29WBA"
+- _Arpa Ingrata_ is a timelapse.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YM8FQ56AYZF9S1R0E"
+    - I see myself in my childhood home, barely grown up.
+    spending time outside, playing pretend with my sister.
+
+        % id = "01JQYKNE7YEDH5RCQJWVDKNEJE"
+        - our pond, and our cherry orchard.
+        the hill behind the house.
+
+        % id = "01JQYKNE7Y4Q54P26BNCZQR4DH"
+        - sunsets and sunrises, days passing by.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7Y9712TYDRW9FD36B6"
+    - next thing I know, I'm growing up.
+    becoming taller.
+    finding interests.
+    diving deep into computers.
+
+        % id = "01JQYKNE7YZ0TJV90Q5PNJAWWT"
+        - spending late nights playing games.
+        programming.
+        _writing_ games.
+        writing software.
+        next to a warm desk lamp.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YVCSWM39N42A1B3E0"
+    - I'm spreading wings.
+    melting away fear, slowly. day by day, week by week, year by year, I become a stronger person.
+    I meet my online friends IRL.
+
+        % id = "01JQYKNE7Y16ND8NECY0DQQSBZ"
+        - I change. I transform. I become.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YYCJ0HYK0TNREVB3M"
+    - I find a job, meet new people who are as deep into this whole programming video games thing as I am.
+
+        % id = "01JQYKNE7Y8H1VQY3XWQ0NPKMN"
+        - and then I see myself, now.
+        21 years old, and counting.
+
+% id = "01JQYKNE7YD2CPVSS0TXFRAESP"
+- those are all the interepretations of _Dubio_ I've collected so far.
+you can listen / buy the album on [Kettel's Bandcamp](https://kettel.bandcamp.com/album/dubio)---and you really should, because it's wonderful.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7YJX8XZA9HWFJS18C5"
+    - I wish I had some more interpretations in stock, but I don't want to hold these existing ones forever in my diary.
+    maybe I'll update this post in the future, with interpretations of some more tracks.
+
+        % id = "01JQYKNE7YX0763QJZQWSCTZ24"
+        - in particular I somewhat regret I don't have an interpretation for _Peepuntpopkema_, as well as Secede's remix of it.
+        those may just be my favourite tracks of the bunch.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKNE7Y86HS5VSX6B1YH1X7"
+    - Reim---I hope you enjoy these. love, riki

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+- ### [Kettel - Dubio][page:music/dubio]
+
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+    - I wholeheartedly love this album.
+    it makes me think, it makes me imagine.
+    it shows me backgrounds, landscapes, people, events, feelings.
+
+    % id = "01JQYKYRF2E4ZQR5PQ0YJ0V02F"
+    - this is a set of my synaesthetic interpretations of some of the first tracks.
+
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 - ### [C++ without Classes][page:programming/cxx-without-classes]